what's wr0nq with my life?

jae

2012-01-11T00:13:00.001-08:00

Hey ♥
Just applied my JAE application.
Fucking nervous.
I think even if I didn't get in S97, I will still continue to study music.
Learn keyboard, piano, guitar, bass.
I will keep learning :)
I'm not gonna stop here even though my results ain't that good.
I guess I love to learn.
Nerd me :D

Gonna work at 5pm, second shift.
All the best to me, alright?
Ciao ♥

hehe

2012-01-07T07:08:00.001-08:00

Hey ♥
Today is tiring for no reason.
Work wasn't tiring, cause only stood for hours, selling Lukan, Swatow, Ponkan, Mandarin.
I hate customers who choose those lukan like.. choosing gold.
Come on.. Just peel and eat it.
Like choosing husbands like that sia, wtf.

Then I forgot which auntie gave my mum a box of lukan.
2 spoil de knn.
WTF sia.
I should had check before auntie took it.
Fuck.

Well, tomorrow morning need go queenstown cc.
TAKE bursary award ahahahaha :D
MONEY :D
Too bad its only merit.
Scholarship more money :(

Then 3pm gotta go work.
Maybe rush uh ._.
Jiayous myself hehes.
I go slack le.
Ciao ♥

love

2012-01-06T06:13:00.000-08:00

Hey ♥

Today off day :D
Kinda fun today loh.
Went SP Open house.
Met up with Jo, Dan, Seng, Chye, Jy.
Went around SP and NP.

I am really interested in Music and Audio Technology (S97)..
LIKE VERY SERIOUSLY ♥
But I think I don't have the confidence.
Frighten by the talented people :/
I do love composing music but I never actually did it.
Haiz..
FML?

Hope that on 9 Jan, I can get good results :(
I am damn. scared.
And still gotta work after that. More fk up.

Nevermind luh.
I got nothing else to post.
Ciao ♥

SP openhouse was awesome actually.
Much goodie bag stuff.
I bought a SP bear ♥
And a star necklace?
Love it.
SERIOUSLY LOVE IT. ♥♥♥

eeyer

2012-01-05T07:57:00.000-08:00

Hey ♥
SO BORED. D:
Tomorrow off day.
Lucky ~
Gotta go SP Open house :D
Last minute gonna meet up with some peeps.
Don't really feels like but, just join in with them.
Cause its awkward and.. Awkward.
Rarely hang out with classmates le.

Now I'm kinda workaholic?
I keep looking forward to work.
Cause can earn money :D
Plus some aunties are totally sweet ♥
The people there are awesome, sometimes.

Actually today pissed off many people.
I fking slack.
I'm very sorry, cause I seriously damn tired de feeling today.
D:
Mr Yeo sorry :(
He looks damn angry and pissed off just now ://
Luqman also angry ><
Haiz.

I should start concentrating and work hard.
I think my studies now damn cui.
Can't remember anything about exams stuff.
Oh ya,
O level results out on 9 Jan :(
So fast uh.
Then take liao still need go work at 4pm.
Maybe cry while working..
Haiz.

I go play with my dumb bells le :D
Ciao ♥

feeling down.

2012-01-02T02:06:00.000-08:00

Hey ♥

Today work was okay.
Didn't really feels good.
Although laugh here and there.
Throat kinda sucks.

Today walked home with my old neighbour.
She kept telling me about Sheena :)
Kinda miss her.
Super long never see and even talk to her already.
Glad she's still so smart.

Well,
I eat dinner alone le.
Everyone went out.
I'm feeling kind of down today, for no reason.
So.. Bye.

Ciao ♥

happy 2012

2011-12-31T08:33:00.000-08:00

HEY ♥
HAPPY 2012 :D
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
I'm so sleepy now.
But staying up for a while :D

I wish can hang out with people for fun! :(
Nevermind, I don't mind emo and work :x
Don't know what to do.

Ciao ♥

so no meaning.

2011-12-30T22:10:00.000-08:00

HELLO ♥
Ended first shift at 1pm :)
Today was pretty fun.
Aunties were OKAY.
The aunty damn. kbkb.
She can be a fking nice angel, then be the worst person ever.
Then I talk to her also start to have attitude.
She don't even look at me in the eye.
Like I am so lousy till she don't even wanna bother.
Damn fucker sia.

Well, Ah Kin auntie they all are a fun bunch ♥
ESPECIALLY LUQMAN LAH.
He damn auntie killer!
Kept disturbing them till aunties love it LOL.
Then he damn perv also lol.
Kept making aunties excited! :X
Leng Kim auntie actually used a papaya and hit Luqman's butt! AHAHAHAHAHA.
DAMN FUNNY sia today :D
For now :(

Oh yeah.
That MR ONG GONE SIA.
I was supposed to look after him anyway..
Felt really sorry to Mr Yeo :/
>< SORRY T.T
I still can't believe he gone sia.
I'm so fking irresponsible ..
Haiz.
BLIND LAH ME :(

So later gonna work second shift.
Don't really looking forward cause not many crew gonna be there.
Luqman and the aunties are not working later :(
New year's eve sucks so much this year.
Didn't even go celebrate with my relatives.
Bad lah me :x
But I rather work also.
I need the money.

So..
Yesterday my dad and mum shown me a brochure for pop piano.
Cool :) Its at plaza sing, Yamaha.
I don't know if I should go.
I need the money and time.

I really don't wanna quit NTUC soon..
But I gotta.
I will miss everyone. Except.. The selected aunties.
I still think they damn bitchy uh.
Unreasonable and rude.

Later countdown.. Haiz.
I wanted to go out with people, but none free..
Janet they all gonna party all night.
Like as if I will join the rich people to party.
The guests confirm all wear till.. Damn fucking branded and expensive.
I will look like a joke there :/

HOODIE ♥ :D
SHORTS ♥ :D
TEE SHIRT ♥ :D
CAP ♥ :D
SNEAKERS ♥ :D
HANDPHONE ♥ :D
EARPHONES ♥ :D
etc to wear and bring.

Ah.
I really wanted a more meaningful New Year's Eve.
ITS THE LAST DAY OF 2011 LEH :(((
Haiz.

I go emo le.
Ciao ♥

uh.

2011-12-29T23:18:00.001-08:00

Hey ♥
So.
Tomorrow working two shifts.
Okay...
Since I've got nothing planned.
Confirm sians de.
Ah, fuck.

Nevermind.
Just gonna do my best each day.
Spending my last day of 2011, working till night?
Desperate or what xD.

Well, random.
Seanny's fb gone LOL.
Was thinking of going there to stalk, then gone.
Eeyer -.-
Nevermind luh? :)
Don't know how to ask him also heh.
Next time see if got chance to ask bah.

Sians.
I wanna spend my New Year's Eve..
More meaningfully leh.
Haiz.
Ciao ♥

eeyer

2011-12-29T22:12:00.000-08:00

Hey ♥
Ended work and I'm so sians now.
Watching 'Jump In!' :D
Kinda love their jumps lol.

Today at work was okay.
Kind of busy and boring.
But it was fun though.
At least still got laugh or sth.

Now my days are getting worse.
So tired of everything.
Wait till I get back my results..
I don't think I can be that happy to anyone already.
9 to 11 Jan, one of the days.
Because of that,
I've been thinking so much.
Such as what should I do for my future..
What if I couldn't get in my desired courses.
Sucks shit right?
Ka na sai nia.

Ah,
Seriously so tired of everything.
Nothing is going well either.
Plus tomorrow is 31/12/2011.
Last day of 2011.
Ain't gonna go anywhere..
Bloody hell ._.
I wanted to go out but dk where to go also.
Ah, forget it.
I also don't know what I want now.

So emo sia.
Kns knn ccb motherfk.
Okay.
Ciao. ♥

bye

2011-12-29T06:52:00.000-08:00

Hey ♥
So awake.
Nap for so long. :D

Today work was average.
Not good, not bad either.
But kinda fucked up at the Xmas decorations side.
Why that bastard so kaypo one?
I don't even wanna talk to him already. Zzz.
Knn fuck -.-

Aiyooo.
I stop this post first.
Nothing much to post ♥
Ciao :D

argh

2011-12-27T22:04:00.000-08:00

Hey ♥
So sleepy ~
Just ate :D Happy girl ♥

Now listening to Tomorrow - Tablo feat. Taeyang ♥
Sweet and good rhythm :D

Today was actually kinda fun at work.
Not like yesterday, so fucked up.
Heng luh ♥
Kept laughing at Luqman's jokes.
Confirm aunties say I slack liao lol.
But tomorrow will keep working luh.
He off so, just help out whatever they want :(
Tomorrow gonna be boring -.-

Okay,
Gonna stop this post for now ♥
Ciao ♥

Thanks for the memories. ♥

sleepy

2011-12-26T22:20:00.000-08:00

Hey ♥
Just ended work.
So sleepy.
Just ate lunch ♥ :D
So sleepy indeed.

Like nothing to do ://
But I rather slack then work now ._.

Aish,
Nothing to post for now :)
Ciao ♥

please

2011-12-26T04:57:00.000-08:00

Hi ♥
Back from Malaysia :D
Keep dizzy there sia, wtf.
Kinda upset that godfather is not getting well..
I really don't want to lose anymore of my loved ones.
Haiz.
Fuck my life.

I love you all, really.
Everyone of my friends, family, everyone.
Please stop letting me lose more people.
God, please. ♥

Well,
I tried drinking.
A cup.
AND I HATE IT MAN.
Damn.. -.-
Shouldn't had believed them.
I suck lah. :(
I remembered yesterday locked myself in the room and drank :/
I just keep saying, FUCK MY LIFE MAN.
Ahaha, at least I'm still kinda sober.
Not really drunk :x Only kinda tipsy.

I stop here first :/
Nothing to post, anyways.
Ciao ♥

Bright side

2011-12-24T21:23:00.000-08:00

SUP ♥
Just ended work.
Laughed and smiled a lot.
Cause,
I promised to smile today and tomorrow and so forth.
Well,
I don't want to break my promise :/
And I want to look happy.
Better than people asking me why the fuck am I so sad. xD

SO,
I WANT TO LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE :D
Cause Janet's words luh :)
She said a lot of things.

Hmm so I have two choices.
Either I move on and .. Find?
Which isn't gonna be easy.
Or,
I'll just wait for him.
This is difficult too.
Cause people changes, feelings changes.
Everything ain't gonna be the same.
So either ways,
Not good.

But,
I'm very confused now :/
Cause don't know what to do.

Funny is,
Janet yesterday just keep saying,
Why not I just wait for him till he ended NS?
Well, that's very long but then she said,
If he's the one,
Then I can do it :/

But,
I keep telling her,
If he changed,
Ahaha, then what should I do?
Then we quiet ahaha.

Well,
Now I won't do anything first.
Cause I'm still confused.
So..
Im just gonna smile and live my days first.

Ciao ♥

Merry Christmas

2011-12-24T08:43:00.001-08:00

Merry Christmas ♥
I hope that everyday will be happy.
No more sadness, no more.
I will smile :)
Even though its gonna be hard,
But I gotta do it.
Love you.

Ciao ♥

haiz x3

2011-12-24T02:56:00.000-08:00

Hey ♥
Being quite emo today and yesterday night.
Actually just woke up on 6pm.
And the dream kinda made me cried, again.
It was the flashback of everything lol.
Since this blog might be dead with no updates,
Just gonna try posting everyday?
Well the dream was..
From the first day we met till yesterday.
Everything just run through in my dream.
Then yesterday when we talked,
In this dream,
I said everything that I don't have the courage to say.
Such as,
"I don't care about anything, I just want to.. be with you." Etc.
I was so selfish :/
NO way I will say that for now.
Cause I don't want to ruin his future of course :/
Well,
Even my friend said that I don't know the future.
Haha,
He probably found his right lady ;D
But for now,
LET ME EMO LAH, Janet :(
Sad till I just finished another tub of ice cream..
:/
I am so gonna break the TV if romance stuff appears! T.T
Cried till I fell asleep just now sia ahaha.
Didn't know I would still do that.
Some kind of happy Christmas Eve? :/
Somemore tomorrow is Christmas..
What should I do?
Nevermind, I'm going to Malaysia tomorrow anyways.
Just gonna be inside emo while..
Staring at my grandma picture :/
Kyaa, I really don't know what to do already.
I will be happy tomorrow :D
But sad for now.
haha,
Um handsome?
I'm really sorry.
Don't really know what's wrong with me, heh.
Ah,
emotional feeling back.
Ciao Ciao Ciao.

bye

2011-12-23T06:44:00.000-08:00

Hey ♥
Just edited the last post for Seanny's special post :)
I'll be alright.
Just let me be sad for tonight and tomorrow.
And I'll go back to normal :)
If I never reply,
Please forgive me.
This time,
I can do it alone.
I will be alright until like nothing had happened.
So,
Please understand.
Signing off.
Ciao ♥

heng

2011-12-22T07:16:00.000-08:00

Heh, Seanny smsed me finally :x
He's alright ~~
Glad that he's going home already ♥
Are you reading my blog? :3
Haha :X

Love you, Seanny ♥

Ciao ~

eh?

2011-12-22T05:49:00.000-08:00

OKAY.
I JUST SAW THIS TWEET.
MY HEART SERIOUSLY JUMPED.

"Gunshot heard in VivoCity; police found man dead in toilet cubicle on 1st floor; MediaCorp understands man could be auxiliary police officer"

Seanny in Vivo ><..

sad life

2011-12-22T05:43:00.000-08:00

Hey Handsome, where are you? ♥
I'm so bored :(
But don't wanna disturb your outing :/
Think you're having fun now anyways ~
Wish you sms me soon ♥
I hope you'll go home safely :D

loves.
Ciao ♥

random

2011-12-22T00:41:00.000-08:00

Hey ♥
Typing this on my phone,
while beside me are Janet, Cat, Peace and K Cho ♥
They are watching some movie on their laptop.
We're inside Janet's car.

Told them about Seanny ♥
They were like, "That's fast."

K cho worries that I'm gonna get hurt again.
Still so sweet.
Wish he can find his perfect girl soon.

Peace said I was too easy to get.
Haha, I know :/
But I think I fell in love this time.

Cute S-Cat just keep on listening to my story.
He was smiling and saying, "Youth is great."
I bet he's thinking about his fiancee again.
Oops, I meant wife.
It was still touching that he married her, even when she.. passed away.
Ah shit,
Gonna cry again.
I love how S-cat always says that there's only one lady in her life and that's her.
How could I forgot her name?
Fk my memory.

Hugging Janet cause I'm missing Seanny.
And shit sia,
My leg got a kinda big bruise.
It hurts a lot.
:/

Oops, phone low battery.
Gonna post it for now :D

Hey handsome, I love you ;D

Ciao ♥

Sup

2011-12-21T01:46:00.000-08:00

Sup? ♥
Today ended work at 1pm.
Legs suan, tired and sleepy.
All I did was just stand and pack stuff.
And I'm still tired, wtf?

Okay,
Today was pretty funny. ♥
Kept joking around.
Don't dare to play around so just do my best.

Too bad today was fking cold.
Whole day I kept having the chills.
Somemore the air-con was strong.
Fking cold lah.

Too bad today can't meet up with Sean.
Apparently mum was busy to bring me and bro out..
So she postponed till Saturday.
And now,
I don't have any excuse to get out of the house.
Mummy's being very paranoid, and its very irritating. ♥
Love her lots but,
Where had my freedom went? Trust?
Nevermind..

Okay,
I miss the hugs ♥
Ciao ~

random

2011-12-20T09:16:00.000-08:00

Hi ♥
Couldn't sleep.
Just wanna say that,
I'm SYGT's ♥
Have a nice day!

Ciao ♥

sweet.

2011-12-20T07:53:00.000-08:00

Hey ♥
Today was chalet :D
Met up with Jo at Bugis then mrt till Pasir Ris.
Was kinda bored lah, but tired also.
So we went to NTUC buy stuff.
We bought candy canes :D
SWEET CUTE CANDY CANES.

Then we took bus to Downtown East.
Walk walk walk till chalet :D
When we went in..
FUCK, so small AHAHA.
The beds covered most of the room.
There was quite many people there..
I, Joanna, Desmond, Erica, Joo seng, Shannen, Wei Song, Jarrat, Samuel, Jin yao, Daniel.
I forgot if I left out any :D

So, it was boring cause Idk what to do there.
Plus Jo they all just kept talking about other stuff that I have no interest in it.
Lucky got Sean to chat ♥
Funny is, Sean suddenly sms that he's wanna come over.
I was O.O lol.
But I'm glad he can come over.

So, he came then I met him at Downtown East.
He wore red shirt, with bermudas(?) :D
Was kinda cute ahaha.

Then we walked to chalet,
too bad he didn't join us.
So I tried some of their bbq ~
It was awesome.
They did a really good job! ♥

Anways, SKIP to the part I went to look for Sean.
It was pretty dark ><
Then we went Downtown East and he bought studs(?)

Ws called to ask us buy 1.5 Sprite.
IM SO SORRY SEAN ><
I thought studs because connection sot T.T
Please don't be angry with him ><
He's like a bro to me :)
Please ><

Anyways, then we walked to the beach there??
Held hands ♥
Then walked to the shelter? :D
Sean hugged me ♥
It was pretty addictive.

So, we went to the bench and sat down.
Lying on his shoulder ♥
Enjoying the wind ♥
It was dark, but he is there so I'm not really afraid :D
With music, nice ♥
And, listening to him talking.

We just stayed there till 9+ :D
I just really wished time would stop right there ♥
And,
Seanny kissed me on the forehead :X ♥
It was shocking >< but its okay ♥

Although we've just met,
We must stay in contact and never .. ><
Thanks a lot for tonight ♥
Sorry that you wore nice shoes than kena mud ><
And every time you hug me,
My heart seriously ba thump till .. >< ♥
And you said, "One day,I'll bring you to see the sun rise and set together." ♥
I hope we'll go there one day ♥

Very sorry that my friends made you dulan tonight :/
I hope you won't be angry le ><

Tomorrow won't get to meet you at work,
So will try my best go find you! :D

Lastly, thanks for letting me dare to fall in love again.
And..
I think I'm having a bigger crush on you. ♥
Thanks for saying "I love you." ♥

Type till here first :D
Gotta let Sean sleep soon ♥.
Ciao. :D ♥

Sean :D

2011-12-19T06:41:00.000-08:00

HELLO :D
Just got back from stock tick :D
Sean sent me home ahaha.
Sweet of him, SO MUCH ♥
Stock tick was pretty fast this time, it seems :o
It must be troublesome for every worker there, every month :(
*salutes! ♥

So,
Sean today shocked me twice :X

First shocker ♥
He hugged me suddenly in the ..
What's that called?
Grocery Prep room? :O
HE HUGGED ME LOL ♥
First hug to a guy ._.
Pretty shocking ><
But he's taller a lot ahaha.

Second shocker ♥
While we were gonna cross the road,
He held my hand! >< ♥
Okay, it was dark.
I pretty much see only some flash lights.
But it was shocking :X
I was like, "HUH?!"
lol :D

But in the case of awkwardness,
I linked my arms with his.
Ahaha. ♥
I don't linked my arm with my male friends so..
xP ♥

Okay, so Sean was such a shocker tonight.
Thanks for staying even though you were pretty tired :(
TYVM ♥♥♥

Update more about us if got chance :D
Ciao! ♥

SHORT POST

2011-12-18T05:56:00.001-08:00

HELLO AHAHA ♥
Just a short post for fun.
SEANNY might be bathing now -.-
So,
He might read this?

AHAHAH.
SEANNY ♥
YOU'RE TOTALLY AWESOME LAH KAYS? :D
SEE YOU TOMORROW. ♥

Ciao :)

wtf.

2011-12-18T01:01:00.001-08:00

Hey.
I couldn't sleep with the headache.
So decided to post.
Just made Sean dulan.
Didn't meant to, but Idk what to say.
Haha, I'm totally full of crap and excuses.

Sorry, Seanny.

Looks like the special post gotta delete it soon.
I guess that's it.
fml huh? :/

Ciao.

SEAN YAP GUAN TENG ♥

2011-12-17T02:56:00.000-08:00

HELLO ♥
This is just a random post ahaha.
This post will keep getting edited ♥
Cause its about Seanny. ♥

Okay.. Gonna find a Sean pic to put here.
LOL, but too many.
Don't know which to choose ._.
Next time choose the perfect ones ♥

[This is super cute ♥]

SO.
To summarize..
First time.
I met this cute handsome guy,
Sean Yap Guan Teng.
On a Tuesday, 6 Dec 2011.
Cause I 8 Dec 2011 then start work mah.
So I met him two days before start work.

Plus..
At first my impression of him is, damn.. He's tall. Cause he's taller than me haha.
His hair is kind of long, but can be longer.
And,
I always go Dawson NTUC but I totally never see him before.
AHAHA.

Then, few times I will see him or .. I almost crashed into him. (sorry ._.)
My old shoes just don't have anymore friction or something LOL.
Now new shoes le :D
I just keep sliding.. Sliding.. Sliding.
Then I thought he will be damn scary and fierce ><.
Maybe cause of his tone bah ahaha.

But then he that time talked to me then added me on fb,
And somehow we hang out together sometimes. ♥
After we exchanged numbers, we also started chatting :D
He's really, idk.. , makes me wanna know more about him.
But till now, I don't know much about him.
Aww. ://

Hmmm, we went out 2 times in total.
First time is just a dinner (:
Forgot date le ><
Second time is on 16 Dec 2011 ahaha.
I hope we'll still go out together next time kays!? :D
*hints* USS lol ♥

Always..
Thanks for bringing me till my block de lift,
every time when you're free ♥
Its really interesting that the NTUC peeps always jokes about us together,
and we kept saying we're just friends xD

And yeah,
you're very straightforward but its okay.
You don't lie.
You're super helpful :D
MR SUPER NICE GUY ♥
You're always a gentleman.
But too much already.. :/
Cause you paid for everything ><"

You're awesome in your own ways.
Your hair is pretty long and thick :o
Go for treatment sometimes! :D
Cause if gonna keep your hair till NS ~
You gotta protect and take care of it :D

And hor,
I told you natural is beautiful ♥
Haha.

On Sunday (18 Dec 2011?),
we quarreled for the first time :/
I felt really bad for that ><
Im such a fking blur block :(
I'm sorry ♥

On 19 Dec 2011,
You hugged me and held my hands for the first time♥
This is weird ahaha.
We are just friends yet we did all this :)
Plus, we've just met and all that :/
You were the first guy to do that ♥
And,
I'm kinda addicted to your hugs ♥

Then on 20 Dec 2011,
you came over to my friend's chalet specially on that day.
I was pretty shocked that you're coming over ahaha.
And pretty looking forward to it.
Cause these days,
I only spent my time with you and friends in the outlet.
I couldn't even concentrate on my friends' conversations.
Cause I just wanna meet you soon ahaha.
You came in a cute style?
Shirt with bermudas.
Blasting music and smoking as you walked.
I was shocked for no reason xP.
Cause my heart just kept beating faster, literally.
Although my friend gl dao you,
I'm glad you didn't create a fight with him.. :)
I really don't wanna see anyone getting hurt.
Then we spent our time at the beach?
You hugged me & kissed my forehead ♥
That's friggin sweet AHAHA.
You also said "I love you" in malay ♥
Plus I lied on your shoulder and listen to music, your voice & the wind ♥
Damn,
I'm falling hard for you ._.

Those 'what if' that you're gonna leave me one day,
Really made my heart crumbled. :/
Because,
What if that day come?
We might quarrel harshly than ever,
And everything will be gone.
Ah, don't emo le ahaha. :/
And obviously if you left,
I obviously will cry -.-
Cause I'm yours.

I hope the time would stop or else, last a lifetime.
Cause you & the memory are etched in my heart forever.
One day, if we still have the chance..
I also wish to see the sun set & sun rise together with you only. ♥

On 22 December 2011,
Aw, today didn't meet you again.
Went to grands, then met up with Janet for awhile just now.
Now at home editing this post ♥
Seanny's out with his friend :D
He should be having fun ~
Later at night then disturb him :x ♥
Tomorrow is gonna be a long day.
7am to 1pm. 5pm to 10pm.
I miss hugging Seanny ♥

On 23 December 2011,
Today working from 7-1pm. Quite tired but couldn't sleep.
Later going back for 4-10pm shift.
Kind of worried that I may mess up at work later.
My memory damn cui.
Didn't get to talk to Seanny today anyway.
Our atmosphere kinda tense.
Dk what happen though.
Later at night then we'll talk about it.
Maybe later then I may post about it uh.
Like,
What are we .. etc.
Ciao~ for now.

Hey ♥
I'm back from work.
Well, Seanny and I remained friends.
Although he prefer that we don't even be friends anymore.
I can't do it.
He was part of my life, and he still is.
Although I wanted to delete the post,
But can't bear to.
Much memories :/
Haha, although I don't think he gonna read it anymore.
Yeah, I'm pretty sad haha.
Tears wanna flow down but I don't want to.
I feels weak and I don't like it :/
My friend told me this,
"Met the right guy at the wrong time."
Haha,
I don't know.. Maybe?
At least I know how to love all over again.
And I seriously don't hate Seanny for saying those stuff :)
Cause damn..
He's just 16.
He have a brighter future haha.
I also don't wanna hold him back or something.
He deserve better too.
Guess I'm not the right one :)
Sorry.
I will be sad for tonight and tomorrow probably.
But I will be alright after that.
And Seanny,
Thanks for the all of the memories although its short. ♥
I will totally remember the times :)
I hope your dreams can come true and find your true love.
I'll still be here okay?
And you aren't a jerk for saying all those stuff, really.
I love your straightforwardness and no lies traits.
And I do trust your words okay?
You will never be compared to my exs.
Your hugs are addictive so I bet your future girl will be lucky ;D
I'm glad that I met you and the people in the outlet ♥
Or else my holidays are wasted.
Ah, tears.
Haha, I'll be alright.
Handsome kiddo,
I hope you'll be ..
Nope,
I know your dreams will come true,
Found your girl and family to settle down,
Found real friends
And you'll be happy. ♥
Thats all for this post.
Haha,
I'm not strong.
It still hurts but I'll be alright haha.
I will get over this by myself okay?
You also work hard for your future ♥ :D
Love you Seanny.
Ciao ♥

On 25 December 2011,
Merry Christmas ♥
Only went work today.
Later going Malaysia,
Don't know what time going yet.
Seanny's present,
I think I gotta keep it.
A bit weird giving to him anyways.
So,
Just keep it loh..
Ahaha, so to look on the bright side..
If I think Seanny's the one for me,
And if I can take this determination..
I will wait for him till he's out from NS.
Well,
Although it seems impossible,
But I never know like he said.
We could still be in contact and meet up sometimes.
Well..
Just see our fate ;D
I can only accept my destiny and fate luh. ♥
Okay, I go rest le.
Ciao ♥

On 30 December 2011,
Today saw Seanny's hand or is it called arm, injured, bandaged..
Don't know how to ask him about it uh. :/
Plus today go stalk Seanny's facebook,
Couldn't find it le.
Deactivated? :/
Ahaha, I don't know..
He never told me anything.
Plus now sms him, also no reply ahaha.
Ahaha, we now.. Really are friends :)
Not good friends, not strangers.
Ahaha.
It will be okay..
He will be alright.
He will be happy.
He will be blessed.
:)
That's all..
Nothing much to type either.
Ciao.

[Edited on 30 December 2011]

Hi ♥

2011-12-17T02:16:00.000-08:00

Sup ♥
Today's work was okay and funny ahaha.
Wish that everyday work will be awesome. ♥

OKAY.
SEANNY, ask me to update my blog ahaha.
So, im here.
Typing a post.

Yesterday went out with Seanny after work.
He wore his fave panda shirt.
Total up, he looks formal.
Me? CASUAL AS USUAL. ♥
We went Vivo makan!
Earle Swensens is it? o.o
I still think that the atmosphere was pretty awkward but funny.
LOL, I took one pic.

♥
Not that clear eh ://
Seanny ate totally cute and fast.
Well, I'm a slow eater ://
And, he paid for everything ><.

Actually wanted to watch movie at Vivo with .. Idk how spell his name. And his gf.
But the queue was so.. "awesome".
FKING LONG LAH.
So, we went Daiso and bought GEEKY specs for my dad. ♥
Seanny bought a beanie(?) for the guy whom idk how spell his name.
And, he paid for everything.
Again. ><

So, we went back to the outlet.
Wanted to buy snacks but dk which to buy ._.
So didn't bought anything.
Then, we took Bus 33 to Tiong ♥
Kinda crowded.
And we kept stand near the door lol.

We went to tiong GV and bought Mission Impossible tickets ♥
And, he paid for it AGAIN ><.

♥
Forgot to took picture of it together, ps ~.~
We slack around Tiong.
And he bought marshmallows, with chocolate fillings! :D
HAHA, I GOT THE WRAPPING PIC.
AND THE MARSHMALLOW! ♥
I know I siao gao one lah ahahahaha.

♥♥

So.... We went to watch the movie.
I thought it will be fking more exciting lol.
But haha, not till my expectations.
Thought I will be shocked by the sound effects EVERY single time.
Yet, I only kena shocked three times heh~ ♥

OH YA OH YA.
I SAW ARDY AT TIONG CINEMA AHAHAH ♥
Primary school friend, Secondary school friend.
After so long, now then see him.
Although we're not that close but he's still my friend :D
And another miracle.
He remembered me LOL.
Although I hate my primary school life, but I don't regret it ahaha.
Or else, how would I know that everyone have so many split personalities?
Hehe ♥

Around 9+ movie ended.
Most shops closed already :o
And, Seanny sent me home :D
Even though he looks tired ://
So,
THANKS. ♥

Went home and showered then fell asleep while watching TV :x
So overall,
Yesterday was awesome ♥♥
Although it was awkward and idk what to talk about.
It was fun ahahah. ♥
The update about 16 Dec 2011 ♥

I type till here first.
Ciao ♥

random

2011-12-15T06:25:00.000-08:00

Ah Stomach Ache currently.
Just now went to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks 3 with lil bro + mum :D
AWESOMELY CUTE <3
Theodore + Jesse McCartney = AWESOME HOT CUTE <3
ahahahahaha.
Oh headache.
Damn, I REALLY DON'T FEELS GOOD TODAY.

Today work kinda.. tired for no reason.
Normally, I will be alright lol.
Now? Idk why I am so tired LOL.
Shit, I'm so .. -.- shit.

Aw, I seriously wanna slack at home everyday ahaha.
But need money, can't just quit either.
The people there are really nice so, I think it'll be alright for now.
I need to be stronger haha.
Seriously
Tomorrow should be going out.
Don't know why, but got a bad feeling about it.
Hope that it'll be fun alright?
Gotta grab my casual stuff.
Hope I don't look too awkward heh.
Rarely go out with others now.
Only hang out with Janet, Cat, Peace, Perv duo..
SHY SIA :)

Okay, ciao.
I'm dying inside.
BYE :D

LOL

2011-12-12T21:02:00.000-08:00

HAHAHA. Im working as an aunty in NTUC.
Ah, Its at Dawson Place.
Kinda tired and stuff but hey, its A LITTLE BIT fun.
I just hope history won't repeat itself!
[Like those times at MacDonald's]

Here, the aunties also kinda.. scary and loud.
But sometimes they are damn nice or vice versa.
Since I work at morning shift..
Im kinda tired/sleepy to the max.
I understand if I'm very slow and blur,
Just hope they won't scold me that harsh..
:(( later emo.
AHAHA.
Okay, Im part of the grocery team?
So buy fruits or sth, come find me.
Don't ask me is it nice or what shit, I DONT KNOW.

Lucky I didn't kena cashier.
I really hate interacting with customers.
MAC had gave me experience to go to the crew room and shout all the badass words about them AHAHAHA.
I still couldn't forgive those two-faced customers and especially the Uncle who threw money at me.
Hey, Im not a bitch that you just fucked a moment ago okay?

So..
Anyway, life doesn't stinks that bad anymore.
It still sucks but it had improved.
Until the day when I get back my results..
Confirm stinks ttm, maybe cry at home or sth.
Im weak, y'know?

I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO ROLLERCOASTERS AHAHAHA.
Seriously..
I love playing those heights games although I still get afraid like shit.
Just hope that day would come SOOON SOOON SOOON.

1:11 Wish that all my 11:11, 1:11 wishes ALL COME TRUE <333

So, ciao :D
Love my simple blog <3

hello.

2011-11-21T23:26:00.000-08:00

lol ytd was prom.
It was fun.
I look extremely omg, not in a good way.
Well, cause I left everything to friends to help me makeover.
It was nice, funny and painful.

Well, I also kena sabotage by my friends but..
Without them, I don't think I can do it.
With the picture taken, I decided to move on from this crush.
Its quite obvious that he doesn't like me.
Oh, typing this hurts so much -.-
I will move on..
Sorry that I was certain to confess to him but after this,
I think I may emo for a long time.
Its kinda sad now.
He told his friends that he doesn't like, plus I felt insulted at the last part.
I did this to impress? Haha.
I was stupid. I should had just left.

Nevermind.
I will move on despite how much it hurts.
After crushing on him for months,
I will forget.
Im gonna cry omfg.
But I was hoping that I left a good impression then left.
I think I don't have to worry so much.
Since..
We may not attend the same poly, same course etc.

2011-11-12T01:57:00.000-08:00

hello :)
super long time never blog le.
yeah, O levels .
haha, I will post more often after prom ^^.
and, nope.
I don't have a date to prom haha.
Im going with my friends.
I think I will enjoy there.
BUFFET MUAHAHA!
So..
I've got a crush on someone new.
it was stupid and random.
I know he doesn't like me, well.. who does?!
I may be confessing soon. certain this time.

anyway.
k cho, cat and peace are going overseas to meet up with Janet.
I miss that bitch.
we'll have fun when she comes back for two months or more.
bon voyage!
I love you all, lol.

ciao.

ily.

2011-07-29T10:11:00.000-07:00

Hey, you there.
I have a crush on you.
Seriously. (:

luck and knowledge.

2011-07-24T01:58:00.000-07:00

I need knowledge and luck ASAP.

loved him.

2011-07-23T04:59:00.000-07:00

Lucky me.
Lucky that I've moved on.
So, now when I see you happily with her, it didn't killed me that painful anymore.
But, you're always the best.
So, I wish you and her, all the best (:
Now, I will find the one for me.
While you already found your true love. (:
Loved you, and you're the best.
She's so lucky to have you (:

I give my blessings.

zzz

2011-07-18T04:59:00.000-07:00

Zzz.
Seriously..
Why are they so chio?
Why I'm so not..
LOL.
Im suddenly emo cause of this LOL.
Wish I am at least more demure or even more kind ._.
Why am I so evil?
LOL.
Chio girls, you girls are super lucky (:
Surely can get the guys that you want (x

had fun

2011-06-20T06:08:00.001-07:00

Haha, had fun today!
Thought I was gonna rot at home which I didnt :X
Haha, thanks for today :D

Happy father's day

2011-06-20T06:06:00.000-07:00

Hey , I think i forgot to say ,

(IT WAS ON SUNDAY)
HAPPY FATHERS' DAY!!! (:
Made cookies for dad (:
I love it though lol :X

Love you dad <3

roflmao

2011-06-17T09:45:00.000-07:00

LOL. OMG.
Seriously.
Stop it?
If it weren't for me, will you even hook up with so many guys?
Oh my gosh, stop it, bitch.
You're just jealous that I'm brothers with boys.
And you're just an attention seeker, bitch.
Whatever.
They're not mine anyway, so don't come showing off to me.
ROFLMAO.

ily. not

2011-06-15T10:11:00.000-07:00

Okay fine.
I know I am over you.
But you're still someone, that is important to me.
So, we're just friends.
Hahaha.
I wont say, ~~I love you~~ anymore.
Yeah (:

I AM OVER YOU!

2011-06-15T10:03:00.000-07:00

Ahahaha, I'm so over you, right? (:
I mean, I don't love you anymore, confirm!
I'm not jealous!
Haha, I am over you.
Yeah, so totally.
I AM OVER YOU, confirm. (:
I mean, you love her.
Yeah, I'm so over you .
You can date freely duh ahahaha.
We loved, but we will never love each other again.
AHAHA wth am i talking about?

Okay. I AM OVER YOU, ROARS!

maple private server .

2011-06-15T05:30:00.000-07:00

ahahahaha. im playing maple private server.
fun.

loveeee.

2011-06-05T01:55:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I wonder ..
Am I falling in love again ?
Or I can't ?
I wish its HIM, that I'm in love with .

boyfriend

2011-05-16T04:54:00.000-07:00

I want a boyfriend soon.
So I can stop thinking too much.
Sad, I'm so despo. (x
Makes me wanna cry. Haha.

I WANT A BOYFRIEND (:

Happy mother's day! (:

2011-05-08T03:50:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's Day!
I love you mum.
Thanks for being there for me every single time.
Despite how much I made you angry, you still cares.

Thanks for caring for me when I'm sick.
Despite how tired you are, you still stay up till morning in case I don't feel good.

Thanks for hearing my problems.
Despite you had so many troubles that couldn't be told.

Thanks for loving me.
Despite I always made you cry.

Thanks for smiling at me.
Despite how many times I argued with you.

Thanks for buying my favourite things every time.
Despite daddy always nags at you.

Thanks for bringing me out and sharing with me your joy.
Despite you don't feels like it and yet being so nice.

Thanks for being there for me when I cried.
Comforting me and still buy me food to make me happy.
Despite I always slam the door at you and still scold you for nothing.

Thanks for having me as your family member.
Making me feeling loved every day.
Despite I had enemies and no friends,
You are always my closest friend.
Despite how many times I scolded you.
I will never say "I HATE YOU!" to you.
Despite how many quarrels we had.

Mummy, I love you.
Please don't leave me like grandma that soon.
I don't want to cry anymore.
You, Dad, Bro are the energy sources for me.
Please, stay with me.

Happy Mother's Day.
I love you, Mum.

How much I wished you could see this.
Dad, I still love you as much as mum (:

catching

2011-05-05T06:50:00.000-07:00

In primary school, my life is about playing catching with friends.
I love to be the catcher to catch my friends, while they all ran away from me.
Even now, I still felt like that catcher.
Having friends running away from me while I wish to catch them.
Now I don't wish to be the catcher, I want to be the keeper.

sad life

2011-05-03T01:11:00.001-07:00

I like him.
I really like him.
But too bad,
he doesn't even like me.

should i give up?

2011-04-30T05:19:00.000-07:00

Obviously I should had went to ITE.
I'm not good enough to compete with them.
They're hardworking and I'm not.
'N' Levels were just a stroke of luck to me.
I shouldn't had went along with it.

2011-04-24T03:32:00.000-07:00

wtf, i just don't feel like studying.

2011-04-21T02:18:00.001-07:00

wow.
so sorry that i'm such a bad friend.
so bad that you hate it so much.
okay, im so sorry.
okay then, goodbye.
either goodbyes or goodbye forever.

Hate that I love you bro.

2011-04-14T12:13:00.000-07:00

I like you but you like her.
What can I do?
You trust her so much.
You tells her everything that's so intimate about your life.
But?
I was the one who knew you much earlier than her.
But ..
You trust her more than me.
I know she's so much more fun and pretty then this ugly me.
But you are the one who changed me, so don't even blame me.
I changed my actions just to hope that you will notice me again.
But instead, I made you hate me more.
Do you really think that's what I want to do?
I used to text you with smiles and all that.
Until that day you agreed to accompany me to go out.
But that day I search your phone texts.
You sent me the exact messages you sent her.
Then I realised.
You are not into me at all.
As I read, your replies to her were much more happier.
And mine texts to you, are just a bore and extra.
I cried that day not because the food was spicy, it was my heart breaking.
When I thought that I am important to you, you stopped talking to me.
You got so close to her, that I felt that you really like her.
Obviously okay? Captain.
I just don't know how to face you anymore.
If you understand, leave my life completely.
I hate it so much, that it hurts, that I love you.
People said that a girl's crushes are uncountable.
But you know?
There's always a someone that it will stays deep in our heart.
You can't understand, because you already fell for her.
Tell her your feelings then.
I don't mind crying alone anymore.
After all, I can't trust anyone & vice versa.
Plus, I am such a bad friend.
Yeah, i sucks okay?
Whatever, sweetie.

X3fantasy.

2011-04-13T04:29:00.000-07:00

Love sucks.

sians.

2011-04-11T03:23:00.001-07:00

When the one you loves, don't likes you back, IT REALLY HURTS.
More worse is when you can't even hate him.

WELL, thanks to me. You know each other.
So you're welcome. BITCH AND BASTARD.
Well, be loving and fucking good.

eesh

2011-04-09T00:13:00.000-07:00

It hurts when the one you like, likes someone else.
It hurts when the one you like, doesn't even know you exist.
It hurts when the one you like, doesn't returns the feelings.

What if the one you like, is all of the above?

wtf

2011-03-30T04:43:00.000-07:00

hello, miss little bitchy flirty kinky pinky dirty fucking woman.

wtf

2011-03-28T04:28:00.001-07:00

I thought we are friends.
I didn't this kind of friendship then is friends.
I don't like it, it hurts.

haha. what a freak.

2011-03-23T07:50:00.000-07:00

Haha. Really..
Friends? I don't understand what's that already.
Those friends that I love, ha ha, I don't know is it true already.
Well, we will lose contact anyway.
I guess that's what they want in the future.
Cause I don't have a good sense of humor, and I like to laugh at anything.
They don't get me.
They leave.
And I'm alone once again.
It appeared that I can never have last long friends.
Can't believe that I'm tearing while typing this.
I get moody, why can't they understand.
I just want them to care, wtf.
But no one cares, like they said.
I never like jokes, I changed for anyone.
Ha ha, where is the real me now?

spectacle guy

2011-03-16T00:30:00.001-07:00

Well, he don't care? Its okay.
I kinda like that spectacle cute guy now.
I move on fast. (:

ouch.

2011-03-16T00:29:00.001-07:00

Okays. I can see that he don't likes me.
He didn't care about me at all.
Not even once.

Tempted

2011-03-14T00:32:00.000-07:00

I'm tempted to tell you "I think I like you more than friends." and "Can we be together?".

shit

2011-03-03T01:10:00.000-08:00

Every little thing you do, makes me heart beat faster <3

one sided

2011-02-20T01:29:00.001-08:00

Liking someone that don't likes me back.
That feeling really hurts. A lot.
I can't understand what's the reason that I'm crazy over him.
But suddenly the show said, " you don't need a reason to like someone."
Is that really true?

Sians.

2011-02-17T02:54:00.001-08:00

God damn.
I think I know who my heart that's kept fluttering.
It's him.
[Not the one in love with you, woman!]
The guy who I never thought to crush on.
He starting to be my crush.
And I has no one able to confide on.
Gosh..

Haha..

2011-02-14T01:55:00.000-08:00

Lonely valentine.
Sad ain't me?
Goodbye world.

Happy Valentine's Day

2011-02-13T08:20:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!
I wish I get a boyfriend soon (:(:(:(:
Bet my mum would FLIPPED if she saw this :P
ily family and friends ^^~

sweet.

2011-02-11T04:08:00.000-08:00

Okays.. I got few friends remembered (:
***NICHOLAS CHAN - if you're seeing this! Thanks so much for being the first one to wish me happy birthday! ^^
It really really MEANT MEANT ALOT to me!! :D
I was going to cry cause kept thinking no one remembered, THEN YOU SMS ME <3
thank you HAHAHA! (:

I got presents from joanna~~xian&ju~~and wishes from my friends <3<3
TYVM for those who wished me happy birthday in FACEBOOK! :D
Love you all haha ..
thank you very much ~~

Few hours.

2011-02-09T06:19:00.000-08:00

Few hours more to my birthday.
Excited and afraid.
Maybe no one will remembers my birthday, which my heart felt painful now.
I know peepos hate me, but all I want are wishes to me ..
I hate that year when no one remembered it, I cried.
And when my mum wished me happy birthday, I smile again.
Will anyone remembers?
Like how I remembers others' birthdays?
I hope so.. I really hope someone do.
Although I believed the guy I wished he knew, I bet he had no idea and still don't know my existence.

SS3 x3

2011-01-29T18:40:00.001-08:00

Im feeling awfully happy (:
I went to SS3, which I couldn't believe it.
I saw them real LIVE and they looked here.
Yesung & Sungmin pour-ed water on me, Holy water was blissful.
They must had thought fans were crazy because we're happy that they POUR water on us.
They were so cute.
SO cute till I wanna go again.
But thinks about the money, I gave up.
I will always love Super Junior (:

2011-01-27T01:43:00.001-08:00

You god damn shit.
Everytime I felt so left out.
When I say something, cannot reply shit ah?
Yeah, they're more important.
I thought we're friends.
I can so totally see they ignored me.
I can totally know Im so fucking ugly that no one cares.
Im so fuck up that I cried okay?
I changed so much, but you didn't even care.
Instead you changed.
And friends they say, they all left my side.
So I'm always alone? Wth?
What am I really? nothing to you all?
Im NON existence thingy?
I can't believe I'm crying like hell because of my friends.

2011-01-26T02:31:00.000-08:00

I can't believe that you allow him to do that.
You never once thought I'm still in love with you?
Fine, because of that, I will love him more than I loved you.
You really broke my heart too far this time.
You two-faced freak.

SO FUCKING FUCK UP!

2011-01-09T23:56:00.000-08:00

YOU KNNNNNNNN CCB!
KNS KNN fuck your mother upside down!
WHY THE HELL MUST I GO !?
Do you know I am not like those express 4E so clever?
So why must you fucking do that!?
WHY OTHERS GET POINTS FOR NOT GOING!?
I HATE YOU!

2010-12-31T07:42:00.000-08:00

I wish 2011 will be a better year (:
I wish to get a boyfriend after this sweet dream~

2010-12-27T06:06:00.001-08:00

I CANT DO NEWSPAPER CUTTINGS.
I like reading but I have no idea how do I CUT OUT AND WRITE SOMETHING FOR HIM!
FUCK, FUCK, FUCK!!!!

2010-12-23T19:44:00.001-08:00

Shit, I can't wake up in the morning !
Instead, I HATE IT.
My nose get so allergic or some sort and went insane itchy!
THEN, I get so hungry.
And I feels sick!

BUT...
Mummy, I'm not sleepy anymore x.x

2010-12-22T22:48:00.000-08:00

Wow, I got my booklist.
But haven't buy books.
A bit frustrated cause I have to cut 8 newspaper cuttings with summary,
and giving it to Mr Low by next year in his locker.
A bit fuck up, but I have to do whatever I can.
Not like I don't want to find a tuition teacher for english,
does he thinks I am fucking rich?
He has no idea how much I wish I got all subject tuition teachers.
But sorry, I couldn't afford it.
Thats' why my results is awful in front of you.
SO sorry, I gave my best in everything I can do.
You're too irritating.

2010-12-17T02:45:00.000-08:00

I wish he go cck ite.
I could be able to find him, even is just a peek.
I saw him and I'm yearning for a few more looks at him.

2010-12-17T02:41:00.000-08:00

Wow, shocked.
I got 12 points for n lvls.
Although not below 10 but, wow, ITS 12!
I didn't really have much hope but now Im more nervous for interview!
If I can pass interview, it means sec 5 is a SURELY.
Oh man, im happy and scared.

2010-12-10T00:08:00.001-08:00

Wish there's some ways to contact my cousins despite sg or msia side, without letting their parents invade our piracy.

love cousins or not?

2010-12-09T10:47:00.000-08:00

Suddenly remembered the times with cousins at Bangkok.
DREAM WORLD (:
Played so many rides, with them.
Thats' first time I ever been close to them.
I'm really glad.
Just thinking of them, made my heart skip few beats of happiness.
They're just so lovable and it will change anytime.

2010-12-09T10:46:00.001-08:00

How shit.
I won't say I love you anymore at the end of the year.
I believed you moved on.
And I will find a guy to rely on.

2010-12-09T10:45:00.000-08:00

Your love, is the only thing I couldn't give up.

take that!

2010-11-26T06:22:00.001-08:00

BITCH!
You know nothing.
So why don't you just shut the fuck up?
Yeah, I'm vulgar.
So what?
This is me.
I hate to pretend a guai kid.
Its getting on my nerves.
So shit up your ass.

SS3 tickets

2010-11-20T03:00:00.000-08:00

Ahaha, thanks to stella samsung phone with singtel plan.
And desiree to guide where to go for me.
I lined up at heeren and got my tickets.
AFTER HOURS T.T
So Jam and me confirm going.
We're left with mosh pit tickets so ..
2 MOSH PIT TICKETS at A (:

Although wanted Arena-A04 but .. too bad right? ):
Nvm, we got ourselves 2 tickets standing at mosh pit.
Now I wish I'm taller! T.T

2010-11-19T07:08:00.000-08:00

I hate you,
I hate you really.
I hate you very much.
Very very hate you.
Shit you.
Gosh, leave me alone.
Freak off.

At least,
I love my mummy & my daddy.

2010-11-17T11:37:00.000-08:00

This is my life right?
Why can't I felt that?
I felt so WTF.
Totally clueless.

2010-11-17T11:36:00.001-08:00

What's that I'm really looking forward to?
What's that I really wanted?
Why's all my hopes are gone and banished?
I can't see my goal anymore.
I felt stuck in this friggin' life.

2010-11-15T09:20:00.000-08:00

Now ..
What is it that I really wanted?
Whose love?

Thy love, I couldn't get. His love, I threw away.

2010-11-14T10:02:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry.
I just don't have the confidence to fall in love right now.

loves

2010-11-12T09:14:00.000-08:00

Ha. Ha.
How I missed my audi,maple,habbo friends so much.

AUDI
1st batch of loves : Marcus kor, Janice jie, Fyth jie
and i quit.
But when i go back, i met friends again.
2nd batch of loves : Vera, Lester, Kim jie, Pillow jie, Gargoyle kor, Chopsticks, Weeneng(Monster), kilio kor, Sarah jie etc

And my other friends I met, a deep impression :
Ck, Val Sean cat, Gavin, Qi shan, Cherelle, Elaine, Dani, Wei Quan, Wan ying jie, Gemma, Betty etc

MAPLE
my love ones:
Nicholas chan, Jun jie, Tom, aevans, Rice, Lydia mei, Yuky Mummie, Kimberly(Siew wen), Samuel adeq, Jooseng bro, cabbage etc

HABBO
my bestest loves:
Xin ru & HQ & jyl (: and all my sisters, Fangling (leenalee), ultra, etc

I typing this at night, but i gonna edit it if i left out anyone..
cia0!
x3fantasy

2010-11-09T04:21:00.000-08:00

Stranger, stranger, stranger.
I kept saying your name.
I'm sad when I look at your picture.
You probably happy somewhere,
Somewhere ...
Somewhere you're enjoying,
Somewhere that I have no idea.
I miss you, bastard.

2010-11-09T04:20:00.001-08:00

It hurts when I didn't see you till now.
It hurts more when I know I won't see you anymore next year.
Lucky me, until now, you didn't even know I exist in your world.
Too bad for me.
Cause,
I fell in love with a stranger.

2010-11-07T06:07:00.000-08:00

Sweetie, lets' fall in love okay?

bitch and bastard

2010-11-04T06:02:00.000-07:00

wtf, i really hate you all.
fuck all, go shit and die.
cb fuck off!
I hate you guys.
GET LOST!
Freakers, fucks offf!!
ARGH, get away from me!

Sad.

2010-10-17T05:31:00.000-07:00

Fuck it.
I'm sad.

him

2010-10-11T10:26:00.000-07:00

He's really leaving.
Saw all his pictures smiling and happy.
I guess I couldn't catch sight of him far away anymore.
He's really leaving this time (:
Sorry dude, although we're strangers but I hate to say it,
I accidentally like you.

oh no.

2010-10-11T10:25:00.000-07:00

I have no more confidence going secondary 5.
Or maybe, no confidence to get promote to secondary 5 with these results.
Its' hopeless.
Just fuck off with it, I need graduate to university as soon as possible.
I must get there fast.

2010-10-02T06:04:00.000-07:00

My fave clique.
Promise me.
Really, promise me.
That you guys will always stay in contact with me.
No matter where we are.
I wanna selfish-ly say that don't leave, but we are working hard to go somewhere we wanna go so I can't say it.
Promise me we'll always together cause if without meeting you guys, my school life wouldn't be happy.
I would not had look forward to school each day, without you guys.
I love you girls, seriously. (:

Hui Xian , Yan Ju , Dawn who rock my life.
Shu Yi, Yi Yen who trys to bear my annoyance.

We nvr know if we will be separated but we'll always be together :D

2010-09-22T06:28:00.001-07:00

i suddenly remembered what did i love about you sweetie.
that and that.
your words and your actions.
your smile and your laughter.
your shyness and your annoyance.
your randomness and love.
your happiness and excitable traits.

i can't forget what I loved about you, still.
but i moved on.

2010-09-22T06:26:00.001-07:00

if you're my best friend, don't get back what i lent from you.
PLEASE.